Be careful what you wish for

So, I have been praying that God could teach me something and use me to teach from what he has taught me. I have been helping on Wed. nights with the younger kids at church and the teacher of the class asked me to find something to teach them that they would get.
So , right off I thought I will do some lessons on thanksgiving since it is coming up soon and it is a good concept to teach. As I began to write the lessons and think about thanksgiving the more I remember that I hate the holiday and that even though I find myself having lots of things to be thankful for I still don't look forward to this time of year or the holiday. I had actually been thinking about going somewhere for thanksgiving and possibly eating turkey.
But, I still don't know, for 4 years I have not celebrated or eaten turkey or gone anywhere to be with anyone other than whoever happened to be around.
I do have lots to be thankful for.
I hope that I will be able to teach my kids what it means to give thanks without being negative about thanksgiving day and maybe even this year I will eat a bite of turkey who knows.

Pray that I can find it in me to celebrate in my own way and thank God for ALL that he has done even though it still hurts.