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Yes, In fact I am that kinda girl ! John Force signed my arm!!

the Geiko, Gecko and I

I am not entirely sure of the name of this driver. He drives for Al-Anabi racing which is owned and funded 100% by a shiek in the east. they have no sponsers.

OMG !!!!!!!! I was stoked!

If you dont know who this is I am not entirely sure that we can continue to be friends anymore. JK

Ashley Force Hood

Fast Jack Beckham

Don "the snake" Prudhomme

Robert Hight

Never Ever Ever Give up!!!!!

So, This year in November ( which is sneaking up on us rather quickly) it will have been ten years since 5 sisters who were good friends of mine were taken by CPS to foster care.
It was a messed up deal in a small town with crooked cops and terrible CPS case workers.
They were not abused, poor yes but not starved or abused or neglected ever!

So anyways 18 months aftet they were taken away the mother had her rights taken from her by the state and her girls were adopted out .
She went to court several times to fight to get her girls back.
She went all the way to the supreme court of Nebraska.
She wrote letters to everyone imaginable begging to have her girls back.
She had previously lost her oldest son and now had lost her 5 girls for no reason at all.

So, she has continued to fight and fight and write and write and pray and pray!

Outwardly it would appear that she had resigned to waiting until they each turned 18 and then tried to contact them.
Inside she was still fighting and looking for them.
Her oldest daughter Joshua turned 18 two years ago and for whatever reason refuses to communicate with her mother
The second daughter Glorianna, turned 18 last year and her mother has not been able to find her to talk to her.
I have been praying atleast once a day for over 9 years that the girls would come home we prayed before every court hearing and prayed and prayed


9 1/2 years later........
She found Glorie and in a case of I thought you never wanted to talk to me, Well I thought you never wanted to talk to me.......

She came HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!
She moved in with her mom and step-dad and 6 new siblings.

PRAY PRAY PRAY
for this new relationship with mother and daughter
PRAY PRAY PRAY
that everything will work out
I know that many of you have prayed for a child,

I know you know the heart of this mother who wants so much to have her girls back

I know that all of my prayers and all of the prayers that have gone up for these girls and their mother have been heard and answered !
It matters that you pray!

Smiling, smiling,smiling

Karen

New Baby!!!

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last week my friend Angela at http://angellezpage.blogspot.com/

Had a baby girl!
And the best part is
She named her after ME!!!

Karenina Anais
It's pronounced care-uh-nee-nuh. The middle name is Anaϊs. That's pronounced ah-nah-ees.

And I am going to get to see her next week!!!
So pictures will be posted as soon as I get back from Nebraska next week!

Smiling, smiling, smiling

Karen

And in Other more exciting NEWS!!!!!!!!

OK,
So I am so HAPPY I have worn a Large smile all day.
Even at work where I had 3 new girls and 2 people fired which left me incredibly short handed of knowledgeable help.
I WAS SMILING STILL!!

This morning I got a call from Tony !!!!!!!
OMG I screamed into the phone I was so excited to hear from him.
I haven't talked to him since I before I moved here.
That is forever when you are waiting for your lover to come to his senses and come back to you .

And it seems he has done just that!!!!

He kicked his Internet Girlfriend out along with her kid and dog.
He swears that they are over because ( along with other drama) he can't stop thinking about me and wants to be with me!
ME!!!!!!!

We are talking about me moving back down there maybe like the first part of August and us getting a place together and working really working on our BS.

I also got to talk to my kids on the phone today after school!

I could hear the smiles on their faces. Poor babies have been through Hell and back with all this BS with Tony and I.

We are talking about everything and I mean everything all the good, bad, and TMI.

He swears its forever this time no matter what, whatever, forever.

He has her out of his system for good . I guess this was something that he had to do to find out what he had & what he is missing out on.

I am so excited that I am going to get another change to be the wife and mother that I have always wanted to be to him and to my kids.

Smiling

karen

Happy Birthday Boys!

Aidan's Birthday was Friday May 8th.
Three years old!
All day my heart was sick that I was not doing anything for him.
I was not cleaning my house nor decorating. I have not ordered a cake. I have not shopped for a gift that will thrill him. I have not sent invitations out, or set a time and date to celebrate with friends and family.
I have not taken the annual Aidan with Daddy picture ,nor framed it up with the rest of them counting the third birthday that we have shared with you.

Tomorrow is Kyle's Birthday.
14 already??!!?? When did this happen?

Again I feel as if I have failed you also.
Both of my boys deserve a better life and a better birthday than what I have made happen for them.

One year ago today it began.
The beginning of the end of being the wife and mother that I wanted to be.

Last year we had a big party for Aidan.
Last year I got Mother's Day presents and flowers and a picnic in the park and a bottle of rum to share with friends and friends to share it with.
Last year Josh was on my mind in the midst of all else.
I was battling inside my mind if I was the person who thought about such things and was I the person who acted on such thoughts.
I was trying to figure out if I was happy or if I could walk away.
One week later I walked away from the life that I loved and wanted to the life that I thought was all that I deserved to have.

One year later Josh is on my doorstep, Tony is in my mind and my boys are on my heart.
One year later I know what I should have done, I know where I want to be and that is so far away from reality.



I don't want to be who I am in reality,
because in reality I am
divorced, single, childless.
Going forward is so hard when the past is what I want.

Karen

P.S.
I am sorry this was kinda all over the place.

My Brother

So, in case some of you don't know
I have a younger brother, he is 22 and attends the University of Nebraska, Lincoln.
He and I are not close, we don't even really like each other very much at all.

But, on Monday he is leaving and flying to France to stay for a few days and then onto Spain for a week or so and then he plans to take a boat to Africa for another week or so.

He is traveling alone.
He is leaving his laptop.
He is leaving his Cell phone.
He is taking a small backpack/manbag with two changes of clothes and a toothbrush.
He is taking cash money.
He is taking his passport.
He is considering taking a camera.
He is traveling to see other parts of the world and cultures other than ours.

He plans to NOT send cards or letters for the entire 5 weeks that he is abroad.
He does NOT plan to telephone, both of these due to the cost and time delay in mailing and time change in phoning home.

He has no tattoos , although I told him to go get one so that we could identify his body.
He does have a third nipple, other than that he has no distinguishing marks.

He just sold his car and moved all of his things into our parents home in Nebraska.

I guess that I am kinda freaked because I just read and watched "Into the Wild" .
Which is a story about a guy who gives away all of his money and abandons his car and walks into the wild of Alaska lives off of the land for like two years alone and eventually dies. In the story(which is true) he never writes or calls home after he leaves and they find his body in the spring and a few random notes that he leaves in this abandoned bus he finds in the wild to live in.

So even though I mostly hate my brother I don't want him to die or vanish in another country.
He is traveling with no set plan so we wouldn't even know where to look for him if he doesn't return.
France, Spain & Africa are HUGE places to start to find a white boy traveling alone with no luggage.



So, I ask for you to pray for my brothers safety abroad and traveling.

Karen