Wordless Wednesday

World of Outlaws race date with my nephew Tom.... So much fun he was out by the time the main event started! Had a blast.

It truely is :"The Greatest Show on Dirt!"

Wordless Wednesday!

The Pedicure that changed the world....

(I have been working on this post for a while and struggling with this in my heart as well. This is kinda an all over post. )

Well my whole world anyways


lots of things have been changing for me of late.


I went to get a pedicure this afternoon.


I walked in and I was THE ONLY customer in the whole place.


Kinda strange, I even asked if she was open . Yes she was and I had caught her at a good time because she wasn't busy.


I sit in the spa chair and stick my feet in the lovely warm water and sit back and prepared to relax.


Well that was shortly interrupted by her ripping ( no exaggeration) my anklet off my foot.


The Anklet that I have worn for ,well would have been six years next month, had she not took it off.
A very dear friend gave me that anklet/ bracelet the last time that I saw him before he went to heaven.

I told her that I wanted to put it back on right away.


In her best broken English she said " This is so old and dirty and stinky take it off and let me give massage . You will feel better. You can put on at home. Just relax here.


Sounds a lot like what I have been hearing God say to my heart. Even in the midst of all of my other stuff I have been dealing with their absence in my heart. Maybe because when I am hurting I miss them all the more. Maybe because I know that I wouldn't have gone and done half of what I have had I had to answer to J .


I have heard God say to my heart :"Bring me ALL of your heartaches".

God has been begging to take away the pain of their death and to let me relax and soak my feet in the water.

" Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I'll give you rest." Matt. 11:28



God has been with me and been amazing in my life in many new ways as of late. I just have been hanging on to my own grief. I have been hanging on to the pain afraid too let it go for fear that in letting go of the pain I just might be letting go of them in a way. Afraid of what emotion would replace my pain. Afraid of the unknown.

" Casting all your cares upon Him, because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

I memorized tons of scriptures as a child and in college. And they really do come back to you when you need them to.When I sat in that nail shop and heard the lady echo the words I hear God telling me in my heart I also began to hear these verses in my head .

I began to cry and I really felt a peace come over me, a small peace that I haven't felt at all in my heart since they died. I really knew in my heart at that moment in the spa chair that God felt my pain.


I know that it is just a stupid old discolored plastic bracelet.
I have one heck of a tan line underneath of it .
I know that I have his name tattooed on me and that will be there forever.
I know that no matter what I will always remember and love him deep in my heart, he will be my brother forever.

I think I love this anklet more than anything else that I have of theirs because it is a way to remember him alive and not something that I got after they died.

I put my anklet back on and plan to wear it until it falls off.

I thank God that He knows my heart, He knows my pain and He knows where I get my toes done!

Karen

Wall Clock

In my last blog I told you I had created a clock.

Here it is.

My friend Angie over at http://angellezpage.blogspot.com/
has 12 children .
I was wanting to give her a way to display a photo of all of her kids.
I found this idea in "Good Housekeeping." .
Went to my friend Ray who owns a clock repair shop. He hooked me up with the parts and a chart to set the photos .

I am so proud of my creation.

I wanted to share it with you.

I would love to come to your house and make one for you.

Simple Womans Daybook

I was just thinking I would do something a bit lighter.

Simple Woman's Daybook for Today
June 5, 2010

Outside my window.... well I am now a creepy basement dweller and all the windows are either boarded up or painted over. Which could be bad if it floods or catches fire down here.

I am remembering...all the people that I used to know here ( Grand Island ,Ne) when I lived here long long ago before I ever left for Texas. Most of them are still here and at least half of their lives are the exact same as they used to be. Some even live in the same house. I don't ever live in the same place for to long.

I am thankful for.. that I don't live in the same place to long.

Makes it easy to leave and sometimes even harder to leave once again.

I am creating.. I just got done creating a clock for a friend. I should post that on here. Next blog.

I am going.. to get a bed and a dresser so that I can put stuff away and sleep in my own room in a BED!

I am reading.. Yikes! How embarrassing you have caught me without a book. I usually read at least two a week and sometimes two at a time. I have been kinda taking an unannounced( to me) break from reading. I love to read but sometimes I come to a dry spell. When I don't have a book of any kind in my hands.

I am hoping... to get a job that I love not a job that I need.

I am dreaming of...... Being a mother, a wife, a Best selling author, being a wind farmer. Being a success.... and inside every dream are a thousand little dreams. Head in the clouds

On my mind... a boy..... Now that's for another blog completely.

From the learning rooms... I guess I am re-learning how to get around my home town ( Grand Island, Ne.) and how to get around all this DANG construction.

Noticing that... I really can do this by myself. I am noticing that I am OK. Life is Good!

Pondering these words.. Be the change you want to see in the world. Mahatma Gandhi

From the kitchen.. my new roomie James is a Grill Master . He grills almost every night. I actually haven't cooked anything in many many months. ( Note: James is the Husband of my Bestie not a code for my boyfriend whose name is ... well like I said that's for another blog )

Around the house.. My nephew is around . He is three and I love to hear him play on the floor above me when I am downstairs. And I love to play with him and I am looking forward to doing all kinds of things with him again!

One of my favorite things... Right now although I am sure it will be short lived. SLEEP! sleeping in staying up late and sleeping in.

Photo from my album. This is my namesake. Karenina on her first birthday! Which was May 19th. ( the pic has a date stamp on it that I can't get off and it is wrong. )